stuckin_waiting

Five years and I was left to recover alone

I need to get this off my chest because I am still shaking. We have been seeing each other for over five years now. It has always been this weird middle ground where we act like a couple but never use the word. Anyway, I got really sick last week and ended up in hospital for a few days. I texted them when I was admitted (sorry this is long) and just expected them to turn up or at least check in. They never came. Not once. I sat in that ward feeling like a complete fool because I had been there for every single one of their problems for years. Whenever they had a meltdown or needed someone to fix things, I was always the first person they called. But when it was my turn to be the one who needed help, they just sent one text saying they were busy with work and needed space. It really hit me then. I have spent half a decade making sure they were okay, but I am basically invisible when things get real. I came home yesterday to an empty flat and realised I have absolutely no idea why I have been putting up with this. Tb, I feel sick thinking about all the time I have wasted on someone who does not care if I am actually okay or not. I just needed to write this down.