stuck_in_loop_88

I left them and came back a week later

Sorry this is long but I need to type this out. We have been seeing each other for over five years now. It is always the same thing where I ask for more commitment and they say they are not ready yet. Last week I finally said that was it. I deleted their number and blocked them because I was so tired of feeling like I was waiting for a train that is never coming. I felt so proud of myself for five whole days. Then on friday night I was just sitting at home feeling pathetic and I unblocked them and sent a text saying I missed them. They replied within ten minutes like nothing ever happened. Now we are back to square one and I feel like such a fool because I know exactly how this goes. I just hate being on my own and knowing they are out there living their life without me. Anyway, I am back in the exact same spot as before. I feel so stupid for going back so fast when I promised myself I would stay away this time. It is just really hard to actually let go when you have been doing this for so long.