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I broke it off and now I am spiralling

So I finally ended things with the person I have been seeing for the last ten weeks. Honestly it has been a month since I last heard from him and I am still checking my phone like an idiot. We spent every weekend together for ages. He would come over to my place and stay until sunday evening. We ate dinner, watched films, and talked about everything under the sun. It really felt like we were getting somewhere until I asked what we were doing. He just stared at me and said he was not ready for anything serious right now. So I told him if he was not ready then I was done. I thought I would feel relieved but I just feel sad. Anyway it has been four weeks of total silence from his end. I keep thinking about how he used to make me coffee in the morning and how we laughed at the same stupid shows. I know I did the right thing by walking away because I want more than just weekends, but it is hard when you miss the person. Maybe I am just lonely. Sorry for the essay, I just needed to write it down so I could stop staring at the wall.