just_waiting_here

I am still just sitting here waiting

I know how this sounds, I really do. I am embarrassed even writing it out. It has been eight months now, and we see each other most weekends. It feels like we are together in every way that counts, but I know we never actually put a label on it. The other day I sent a text asking if they wanted to come over for dinner on friday. It was a normal enough message. I even double checked it to make sure I did not sound too pushy. Anyway, it has been four days now. They have seen the message, or at least they have been active online, but they have not replied to me at all. I keep picking up my phone and checking it, even though I know it is probably empty. I feel like such a fool because I know I should just walk away. I keep telling myself they are just busy, but I know that is probably a lie. I am sorry for the essay, I just really needed to put this somewhere because my friends are probably sick of hearing about it. It just hurts more than I want to admit.